I Don’t Have the Patience

I never realized how often I answered the question, “Where do your kids go to school?” until I pulled them out of the public school system to homeschool.  Now I dread the question.  It’s one of those questions that you never know the response you’re going to get.

In fact it brings back some painful memories of my youth when I was at the dating age.  I would be talking to a cute boy and somehow, just before (I was certain) he was going to ask me out, the conversation would shift to my dad.  The cute boy would say something like, “What does your dad do for a living?”  And I would respond in a whisper, “Um, well, uh, he’s a pastor.”  Yep, that pretty much ended all dates before they even started.

With the homeschooling question it goes one of two ways.  The conversation either takes an abrupt turn in another direction, or the mom (usually it’s a mom) responds, “Oh, I don’t have the patience for that.”

In my head I’m thinking: Why do you feel you need to tell me that?  I didn’t realize we were confessing our struggles regarding the Fruits of the Spirit.

I don’t know if I’ll ever fully understand the responses I get about homeschooling, but I do know as a mother, I find myself stumbling into the sin of comparison.  I wonder what other mothers think of me as I walk this homeschool path.  What I’ve discovered is that you and I are not that different at all.

Homeschooling is not for every student, but as mothers we are wired for teaching. In fact, I believe every mother homeschools.  We are the ones who teach our children about God, and manners, to walk, talk, potty train and interact socially.  And I’m certain that we’ve all struggled with patience as we’ve taught those skills.  We are our children’s first, and in my opinion, best teacher they’ll ever have.

Whatever your children’s education looks like, whether it’s in a classroom outside the home or inside the home, God has given you an amazing, sometimes overwhelming, assignment to teach them.  Is it intimidating at times?  Yes.  Does it test your patience every minute?  Yes.  Does the task at hand cause fear, heartache, comparison, inadequacy, and doubt?  All the time.  Is it worth it?  Absolutely!

And these words which I command you today shall be in your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house.  Deuteronomy 6:6-7a NKJ

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