Overcome By Boldness

About 24 days ago we took a tentative, cautiously optimistic step to sell our home of eight years:  A home that welcomed us from the desert of Arizona; A home that represented a new start for our family; A home that, over the years, has seen many changes to its structure and functionality as our family grew into it.

Though this is a bold step in anyone’s mind, we approached it as a test of sorts.

IF it sells—not when. 

IF this is God’s will, but not thinking to ask Him. 

Telling ourselves we will be fine if it doesn’t sell, when all the while our hearts beat at an anxious pace for the buyers to walk through the door at any minute.

The bottom line, we wanted to protect our hearts, our minds and our emotions.  And if we held tightly to our home, and didn’t fully lay it at the feet of Jesus to do what He wants, well maybe we could get through this process with our emotions in tact.

And then I felt God speaking directly to the doubting places of my heart.  Give me your house.  It’s always been yours second anyway.  It’s Mine first.  Everything belongs to Me.  Are you willing to let me do anything with your house?

Wow.  Tough question.  But easy answer–at least in theory.

Well of course I’ll let you do anything with this house.  But could you hasten the process?  It’s tough keeping this place so clean and tidy.  Could you bring the buyers right now?  And have them make a full-price, cash offer?

Anything?  Really?

Pretty much—yes. God wants us to hold things on this earth loosely.  He want’s us to pray the whatever and anything you want, Lord, prayers.  And not just for the little things, but everything.

I keep telling myself this is a process.  And I would like to say every day gets better, but it’s slow.  Slower than this “Let’s Do This Now” girl would like.

“Behold, I will do something new. Now it will spring forth;
Will you not be aware of it?
 I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,
 Rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:19

I clung to this verse during our move from Arizona to Colorado. It was literal for me.  He was taking me out of the desert.  But now, in this situation, I see this verse a little differently.  I know he is doing something new.

It may not be the new house I’ve dreamed up in my mind.  It may not be in the desired area I think I want to live.  It may not be a move at all.  But he is doing something in my life.  It will be new.  It will be different than what I know now.  And it will require many bold steps of faith as I trust God’s perfect leading.